It is really hard to know something you are not supposed to know. It is difficult to stand still, to keep quiet to process and to stay on your course.
Your mind races with thoughts. The fact that you knew in your mind already the event does not make it easier in confirmation. You tell yourself not to process the image, not to deal in the emotional impact of it as you don't know the meaning or the intent. It is not yours to handle, to deal with. Yet there it is, pushing forward on you while you are pushing it back.
Besides, you already knew in your heart that it happened, the rest doesn't matter anyway. It is simply choosing where you go from here that matters.
So, Mellissa - where do you go from here? Take a deep breath and push that image back one more time. You can do it.
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